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Sunday, November 23, 2003 I woke up today and realzied that I missed the 30 day mark of Cookie being gone by a day. It was yesterday, November 22 and I missed it. I was disappointed in myself for not keeping better track of the days, but I had been thinking about it for several days now. While thinking about it this morning, I began to think about what led up to her "dying" for the first time that Monday evening. I had to push it out of my head becuse if I thought about it, I would feel so sad and horrible and I just couldn't go to that "place." I wondered if the fact that she had a hard time walking in her final months had something to do with the e-collar and her muscles getting weak or if somehow all of her organ failure played a part in that. Lately, when people come over and see the blanket near the window where Cookie sunbathed...STILL, I feel like I need to make excuses for it being there. I don't care that it's there and I don't care what they think, only I don't want to make them feel uncomfortable, you know? If they don't know what to say to me becuase of it, that's not my intention. I just still need to see her stuff out and remind me that Cookie lived here. All I want for the holidays is my dog back. I have a lot to be thankful for, really I do. But, without Cookie...it's just not the same. She was the one thing in my life that I could always rely on who could be there without saying a thing (hey, she was a dog for goodness sakes). She could just sit there and pass gas even and I would feel better about the world because she was in it. There wasn't anything my dog could do that would disappoint me. Ever. The only thing she could do that I knew would break my heart was to leave me. And she did. posted by lisa | linkorama | |
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