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Wednesday, November 12, 2003 My dog had a big fear of thunder. When freaked out, it wasn't uncommon for her to beeline to the bathroom and throw herself into the toilet. I know, I know, it's just weird. Today though, when it started thundering and I nearly jumped out of my chair, I thought of Cookie heading straight for the toilet. Naturally, it was the first thunder storm since her passing and my first inclination was to rush home to give her her sedative. I lucked out again today as it stopped raining by the time I got home. I guess I am really not looking forward to the rain if I have to be home without Cookie. In the last day, I've had to tell three people about Cookie that I hadn't initally told. It's weird because while they were all sympathetic, I am sure I didn't sound as upset as they would have thought. I think I play it off that I am not as bothered or sad as I appear. Of course, if they read this here blog, they would see otherwise. When I'm with other people, I guess I try not to talk about her being gone...and if I do mention her name, I am given a sympathetic look and there is a moment of silence as if nobody knows what to say. Who am I to intentionally make someone uncomfortable, so I try and change the subject or not harp on the matter. What do I expet really? Do I expect other people to feel as sad about Cookie as I do? In a way, it would be nice, but I know that's not realistic. Even if they did, want to talk about her all the time, it would probably bother me because I'd just be too sad. I guess it's just my problem then, huh? I guess the way I am grieving for Cookie is the same way I was with her. People around me knew I adored Cookie, but I wouldn't let on just how much she meant to me. When I was home though, I played with her and treated her like she was the queen of the world. I think she knew that she was my heart. For some reason, I couldn't let other people see that. I guess I can't let other people see how much I miss Cookie either...if you read it, you know. If you don't...then, you don't. posted by lisa | linkorama | |
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